Carmen Maria Machado Is Using The Word 'Abusive' - a podcast by WNYC Studios

When author Carmen Maria Machado was in her mid-20s, she had her first relationship with a woman. She was in graduate school at the time, and in the beginning, her ex made her feel special. "I just wanted somebody to like, look at me and be like, 'I want you,' you know? And that's exactly what she did," she told me. While Carmen says the relationship quickly became abusive, she was only able to start describing it that way once their relationship ended.

Carmen went on to chronicle this relationship and how she deals with its aftermath in her new, critically-acclaimed memoirIn the Dream House.She sat down with me to talk about coming to terms with the relationship, and complicating common narratives around abuse.

You can find the fact sheet Carmen mentioned in the episode here.It was put together by Hyejin Shim and Graywolf Press specifically for queer survivors of abuse, but it offers insights and resources that are useful for everyone.

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