Podcasts by Pay It Forward Radio

Being Your Truest Self (Ft. Tiffany Toney) from 2023-10-01T19:00:16

This is someone i've been wanting to talk to for a while. There's a lot i could say about Tiffany Toney: writer, director, actress, singer, former athlete, but those things don't matter nearly a...

Pay It Forward Live: Needs and Expectations from 2023-09-10T05:12:20

This was a hot-off-the-press revelation about how my expectations have kept me from being vulnerable, and how they (and the ones of others) stop people from showing up and being who they truly a...

PAY IT FORWARD LIVE from 2023-08-14T02:03:58

I decided to try something new, and simulcast this on Instagram Live as well as this recording.

this was a real fun time. felt really transparent and like my truest self. thank yall fo...

Boundaries and Containers (Ft. The Authentic Man Podcast) from 2023-08-04T19:00:22

(There were some issues with the audio on this one, so please forgive the absence of the intro and outro)

I've been excited, anxious, and happy to have this interview. I think yall wil...

You're Good as You Are, Right Where You Are from 2023-07-05T01:22:47

Because (we) you are.

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Fathers Day, The Father Wound, One Thing At A Time from 2023-06-20T00:34:22

(Not quite a Short, but a shorter episode then I normally do)

For anyone who's listening: Just one thing for yourself at a time is enough.

I see you.

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Something that came to mind while i was doing t...

Remembering Who I am (Saying Yes to Me) from 2023-05-19T19:00:06

I've been controlling the perceptions of others about me for a long time.

And everybody else around me pays the price when i do that.

Ive been doing it because i feel scared...

Options (And Choosing What Is, Again) from 2023-05-10T19:00:32

Some more growing pains and some more showing up for me.

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The Drivers Seat (Making Choices) from 2023-05-03T19:00:23

I've been thinking about driving lately, never got my license. It kind of also showed me how i have places i dont know how to show up for myself in my life. just some life experience and some gr...

Breakdowns and Breakthroughs from 2023-04-26T19:00:38

Because I had a meltdown.

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Who Else HATES Having Needs? from 2023-04-15T23:59:30

Me, im the who else.

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Order/Control from 2023-04-02T19:00:31

Had some experiences that helped me realize i need help letting go of my idea of control.

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Choosing What Is from 2022-11-21T01:03:22

Had an experience at a friendsgiving, learned some cool new stuff. paying it forward as usual. love yall

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Is Love Blind? from 2022-10-29T02:56:34

My Thoughts on Love is Blind, Season 3, and what the word Love actually means.

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Because You Want To, Because You Can (Talents Pt 2) from 2022-10-07T04:52:27

Trigger Warning: A few curse words.

There is a difference between what you have to do, and what you do because you want to and because you can.

This is what im learning right...

Talents (Share your Gifts with the World) from 2022-09-30T00:44

I had a conversation with a mentor, and it taught me that i need not fear my talents but take responsibility.

So this is me taking responsiblity.

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Obligation from 2022-08-23T00:52:49

New Intro, New Healing, New Short.

Thank you guys for always showing up with me.

Mentions of Abuse, Slavery etc (trigger warnings)

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A New Series of Short Content.

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Failing Successfully (Trigger Warnings: Abuse, Porn) from 2022-03-31T19:00:30

I Talk about failing successfully.

I talk about my experiences with porn.

I talk about parents being kids.

I talk about being one too.

I talk about my struggles with my o...

Transparency (Your Armor Isn't Needed Here) from 2022-01-30T17:00

Entering into 2022 with a lot of musings about transparency, shame, being real, God, and what that all means to me. Title Quote inspired by Bryan Reeves' Book (Choose Her Everyday or Leave Her...

A Man Without A Elder's Praise... from 2021-11-10T17:00

This was inspired by a conversation I had with a brother, and taking a look at the new success in my life, and how deeply unprepared I feel for it, and by a mentor and friend's passage out of ...

Authenticity and Integrity from 2021-10-06T16:00

Warning: a few swears. 

Recorded this live to an audience on a Discord community I participate in, was inspired by @hotdamnirock and his journey of authenticity. I talk about the deep pain...

ELEVATE 2021 PT.1 from 2021-08-16T16:00

My Experience with Bryan Reeves of Bryan Reeves Insight at Elevate 2021. it was a whole week of firsts. There will be a part 2 of this where i interview him on his experience with this.

Lo...

It's Good But Is it Honest? (Keeping Promises to Me) from 2021-06-30T16:00

SO this one went in a direction that i didn't quite plan. midway through i pivoted, and started talking about what was really on my heart - the value of keeping promises to me and what that me...

My Story (Trigger Warnings: emotional, physical abuse) from 2021-06-02T16:00

Normally i just share experiences that others may relate to. I want connection and the only way i can truly get it is to be honest with myself. this was a really uncomfortable story to tell, but it...

Broken Masculinity (a work in progress) from 2021-05-24T16:00

had a convo with a friend that sparked this conversation. really just exploring what it means for me to be a man and what masculinity actually means in this world. 

People that i look to t...

Loneliness (And Keeping Promises To Yourself) from 2021-05-12T16:00

Reconnecting with myself has been a struggle, especially as i've had some new experiences that have been cool. One thing that's been healing to me is to keep small promises to myself,. th...

The Still, Small Voice (+ 2021 Recap) from 2021-03-03T05:00

To kick off Season 4: A Recap of my journey so far with Pay It Forward - where it is now, and where it's going next, and the latest thing ive been working on: silencing the external voices and...

Disappointment (Spoiler Alert: it's ok) from 2020-12-31T17:00

In this last (or possibly second to last episode) of the year and last episode of the season I've been letting myself feel some things that were unsafe for me to feel before my dad died. one o...

How Are You Feeling? (A Check In) from 2020-11-08T17:00

Election week has felt very intense. lately I have been feeling stress, overwhelm, anxiousness, excitement, contentment, fear, and a few other things.

Lately, I have also felt numb to thos...

All Things Faith (And making room to Be) from 2020-10-11T03:00

A Emotionally inspiring and challenging month, this is my growth and experience in letting God be God and what being authentic means to me and my faith in the next stage of my life

Streami...

BLM, Unpacking Trauma, and Choosing Peace from 2020-09-07T16:00

My experience with my Prayer Group, Real Prayer Movement, at the BLM Los Angeles Protest, and what it was like meeting some cops right after and praying with them, and realizing i hadn't felt ...

Authenticity is the Way Home from 2020-08-17T01:00

Been feeling numb and with some inspiration from @bryanreevesinsight...realized I gotta open up more to myself.

feels like rambling maybe it’s finding the way home.

follow my jour...

Death And Transformation from 2020-08-10T16:00

When a caterpillar becomes a butterfly, it passes through a period of being sludge.

Nobody told me what it was gonna be like to change

My whole equilibrium is changing and it&apos...

JUST SHOW UP. from 2020-08-01T16:00

Looks like the most important thing I can bring to the table is me. as I am, because even when it doesn't seem or feel like it, right where I am is right where I need to be. this felt really g...

Interview With Christina Barsi of Be Bold Begin/Avant Haus Media from 2020-07-22T16:00

A interview segment with a good friend of mine, Christina Barsi of Be Bold Begin Podcast and Avant Haus Media - we talk often about being real, present, and feelings, and authenticity, and she aske...

I Give You Permission... from 2020-07-13T16:00

I woke up this morning with this message in my heart and spirit: LET GO.

not letting go of negative feelings, but letting go of the part of me that does not believe it is safe to be. letti...

Come As You Are (Being Present) from 2020-07-01T16:00

I'm still grieving my father figures, and figuring out how to be present. 

trying something new here. 

Streaming live on Eidem Rocks Radio (Link in Bio)

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Dear Dad (R.I.P Dr. KL Williams and Robert Wade) from 2020-06-26T16:00

on June 18, I found out my spiritual father and mentor died. a lot of life is coming out of this, but this really hurts. I meant to talk about something else, but I promised that I would be real to...

A New Beginning (And My Testimony) from 2020-06-08T17:00

This is a new beginning for me, but the heart is the same.

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Streaming on @eidemrocks 

A Change is Here (R.I.P George Floyd) from 2020-06-01T17:00

R.I.P George Floyd, Ahmaud Aubrey, and so many more of us that are in my subconscious that I can't even process. I love y'all.

Welcome back to pay it forward. let's get real...

The Power of Being In Heart (Ft. Bryan Reeves of Men, This Way) from 2020-02-16T00:00

A powerful discussion about the value of being in heart. 

(Featuring Bryan Reeves of Men, This Way)


I needed this one.

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It's Ok To Feel it to Heal It from 2019-12-04T02:08:48

A Respectful conversation and encouragement that our hearts and bodies need love, and that if you are grieving, you are not alone.

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Rest, Rejuvenate, Be Real from 2019-11-29T02:01:03

A Heart to Heart talk from me to you, about my personal gains and victories over my struggles with sleep, rest, and being authentic. Some Practical tips on Laughing, Faith, and how to relax and jus...