Podcasts by This Is Actually Happening

62: What if you went on the strangest trip? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I had no idea what had just occurred and why....So I just hid there and waited and waited for what felt like an eternity." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actua...

61: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part Two from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I still don't know what I want it to mean or if I want it to mean anything." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Moun...

60: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part One from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Anytime I felt off or bad or anything, I would immediately freak out....it would just spiral out of control every single time." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @...

59: What if you couldn't control your thoughts? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Like a record player, stuck in a loop all day, every day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" -...

58: What if you were pronounced dead at age 12? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"You're not supposed to recover from being dead...this is as ultimate as it gets, right?" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" -...

57: What if your husband had a death wish? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I feel like I'm a survivor on this Earth and everybody's got everything and I have to fight so hard to get it." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappenin...

56: What if you touched the spirit world? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"There's so much more to the bigger picture...and we'll never understand it until we cross over." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Ambie...

55: What if reality suddenly fell apart? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It's like when your computer reboots...that's sort of what happened to my brain, and then everything on the hard drive gets wiped." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagra...

54: What if you lost a high speed chase? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"This is not just a fantasy. This is not just a joke, like the rest of my life had become. This is real." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music...

53: What if September 11th changed everything? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I have no connection with who I was in 2001...don't know him." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro ...

52: What if you found yourself in a dark, strange land? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Mother nature tells us what to do, not the other way around." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye...

51: What if your roommate had a deep dark secret? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"His face was everything that I was angry about." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper...

50: What if you were not supposed to see this? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“I’m not supposed to be seeing this. Like, there’s a crack somewhere. There’s something wrong.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Water” ...

49: What if you were shot by your father? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A fraught father-son relationship culminates in shocking act of violence

48: What if you went from riches to rags? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman's new boyfriend introduces her to a dark world of drug abuse

47: What if your wife hung herself in the garage? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man struggles to come to terms with his wife's unexpected suicide

46: What if your wife ran you over? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A couple's fight over a bizarre misunderstanding escalates quickly

45: What if your husband led a secret life? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A marriage ends when a husban'ds secret is finally revelaed, calling a woman's entire life into question

44: What if you delivered seven thousand babies? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

An obstetrician reflects on his life long career delivering babies

43: What if you witnessed a thousand deaths? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After 30 years running a Zen Hospice center, a man reflects on what it's like to help transition the dying

42: What if you gave up everything for love? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman takes the leap into an unknown romance

41: What if you were supposed to be on that plane? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman misses a flight due to a minor accident that saves her from a national tragedy

40: What if you came out to your wife at age 37? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After revealing his burdensome secret, a man creates a new life

39: What if you married someone you knew only 10 days? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman lives out the consequences of a bold risk

38: What if you were delivered by the Holy Ghost? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A biochemist, baffled by a life-changing religious experience, is left with a complex relationship with God

37: What if your dad started dressing as a woman? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman narrates what life is like when her father decides to transition

36: What if you lost a fiance and lover to a wave? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A polyamorous woman recounts the fateful vacation that claimed both her lovers' lives

35: What if you didn't go outside until 6th grade? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman's parents, fearing the worst, keep her hidden from the world, forcing her to re-discover herself as an adult

34: What if you spent 4 years in solitary confinement? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A Jesuit priest refuses to participate in the prison-industrial complex after being arrested for anti-nuclear activity.

33: What if you left Wall Street to find true purpose? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man gives up a promising career with enormous wealth potential to find himself

32: What if you lived through the Sri Lankan civil war? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man reflects on his time in Sri Lanka during the 36 year civil war

31: What if your newborn baby never stopped crying? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A couple struggles to find out what's wrong with their newborn child

30: What if you were raided by pirates? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young boy fleeing with his family from Vietnam to the US meets a new, terrifying enemy

29: What if you had sex with over 900 people? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A sex surrogate reflects on her career as a healer by unconventional methods

28: What if you were lost in the jungle? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man goes on a wild, singular search for a lost civilization in the Belizean jungle

27: What if you survived a deadly plague? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man diagnosed with AIDS in the mid-1980s reflects on decades of beating the odds

26: What if you were a nurse for hardened criminals? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A nurse explores the complexities of treating patients in the prison system

25: What if you rose from the ashes of addiction? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man reflects on his decades-long journey from the rock bottom of alcoholism to sobriety

24: What if your mom kicked you out on the streets? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young woman struggles with homelessness after a falling out with her mother

23: What if your stepchild was kidnapped? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman struggles to rebuild her life after facing the ultimate betrayal

22: What if your mom had Paranoid Personality Disorder? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman struggles to make sense of her life growing up with a mentally ill mother

21: What if you had a psychotic break at age 17? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A teenager descends into the uncontrollable, nightmarish depths of his own mind

20: What if you were a white school principal in 1968? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A retired high school principal reflects on his time in administration during the most volatile period of the civil rights movement

19: What if you suffered from Tourette Syndrome? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Growing up in a fairly normal childhood, a teenager develops repetitive thoughts and uncontrollable tics

18: What if you were hanging off a 600 ft waterfall? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A peaceful hike in Yosemite turns terrifying as a young man is swept to the edge of disaster.

17: What if you were given 48 hours to live? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A 22-year old woman is given a diagnosis that leaves her with little time to say goodbye

16: What if you became a Blood Sorcerer? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Grieving the death of his father, a man finds renewal by inhabiting a new way of being

15: What if your dad died on your 10th birthday? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman reflects on the psychological ripple effects of losing her father at a critical time

14: What if you learned how to swim at 43? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man finally confronts a childhood fear of not being able to swim

13: What if you got a job transporting dead bodies? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young man responds to an odd job for some extra money and finds out it's more than he bargained for

12: What if your dad wasn't your real dad? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Growing up as an immigrant struggling to make ends meet, a son's world is shattered when he finds out the truth about his father.

11: What if you didn't believe in belief itself? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After exploring a variety of spiritual systems, a woman wakes up from anesthesia with a renewed belief in nothingness

10: What if you quit your job and lived on garbage? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man quits his job to find freedom in a life without plans

9: What if you had your first kiss at 27? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young woman describes what it's like to be a virgin into her late 20s

8: What if you were falsely accused of pedophilia? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Yeah I struggle with that question...Why?" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Water" – Johannes Welsch Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Ou...

7: What if you lost your sense of smell? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After a freak accident, a woman loses her sense of smell

6: What if you weren't afraid to die? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman in her 90s speaks of old age and what it's like to be at the end of life

5: What if you worked in a remote African hospital? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A newly minted doctor from the US finds out what it's like to practice in a remote hospital in Tanzania

4: What if your mom died on Christmas Day? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

As an immigrant from Costa Rica, a boy is orphaned on Christmas and must build his life in an unfamiliar country

3: What if you used to speak in tongues? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman processes the aftermath of breaking with a church that has it's own unique methods for channeling God's truth

2: What if you were an alcoholic at age 9? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Emerging from an extremely chaotic childhood, a man explores his own psychological unraveling and how family patterns repeat themselves

168: What if you believed you were Jesus Christ? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman self-medicating for anxiety and depression spirals into an alternate reality after an other-worldly encounter

167: Happenings Vol 2: Kinks & Fetishes - What if you had a fetish for disgust? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After growing up in a rigid Christian community, a woman finds beauty in revolting behaviors

166: What if you didn't have any fear? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After visiting a psychiatrist for mild anxiety, a young man embarks on a wild spree that will alter the course of his life forever.

165: Happenings Vol 2: Kinks & Fetishes - What if you were a blind dominatrix? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Growing up blind and isolated from her peers in a strict upbringing, a woman finds empowerment in a kinky world where the power balance is reversed.

164: What if a shocking accusation devastated your family? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After a teenage girl begins dating her mom’s student, a shocking accusation leaves a small-town family in ruins.

Introducing This is Actually Happening from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

The uncanny, extraordinary, true stories of events that have dramatically altered the lives of ordinary people; a son is shot by his own father, a woman's sister develops multiple personalities, a ...

163: What if you grew up in a violent gang? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After tragedy strikes a Vietnamese refugee family, a young man finds his new home in a violent gang, forever marking his life path through acts of destruction and redemption.

162: What if you grew up in a cult? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman puts the pieces of her life back together after a childhood spent inside an insidious religious cult in Los Angeles.

161: What if you suffered a shocking loss? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After growing up in an abusive household, a man confronts a startling, ambiguous loss

Happenings Vol. 1: No Man's Land from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Stranded in a Mexican desert, the ocean waves of Guam, and the sandstone boulders of Utah, three people face their deepest fears in the unforgiving wilderness of the natural world.

160: What if you were assaulted by a stranger in the dark? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman walking to work in the early morning hours faces the ultimate terror.

159: What if someone you love committed a monstrous crime? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A lifelong friendship filled with care, love and personal growth takes a shocking turn in the aftermath of a brutal act of violence

158: What if you entered The Void? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man suffering the deep generational traumas of poverty, racism, abuse and mental illness finds transformative power in an ancient plant medicine

Rebroadcast - #43: What if you witnessed a thousand deaths? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After 30 years running a Zen Hospice center, a man reflects on what it's like to help transition people through the dying process.

Rebroadcast - #93: What if you witnessed the limits of human suffering? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A Yale student moves to Congo to pursue his journalistic dreams and finds an ignored world of people suffering under war and dictatorship whose stories never make the news

157: What if you couldn't tell anyone? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young black girl born to a drug-addicted mother is adopted by white, middle-class parents, only to face more sinister taboos as she becomes a stranger within her own family.

156: What if you swallowed 48 bags of cocaine? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young man looking for a quick way to get rid of student loan debt gambles with his life and nearly pays the ultimate price

155: What if you had to pull the plug? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young woman is forced to make a decision about the fate of a father she never knew

154: What if your mom was murdered by a serial killer? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After surviving a family broken by drug addiction and mental illness, a woman finds out her mother’s death was tied to one of the most notorious crimes in American history

BONUS Episode - Tyson Was Abducted - from What Was That Like podcast from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man walking through a parking lot one night is jumped by two strangers and thrown into a car with no idea where he's being taken

153: What if you wanted to disappear? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young girl’s world is turned upside-down by the early death of her father, but starving herself to cope with the pain becomes a sinister companion

152: What if you were a human shield? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A man becomes a hero during a horrific act of war only to face the worst of it after he survives.

151: What if he made you think you were crazy? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman finds respite from childhood anxieties in relationships only to enter a spiral of mental illness and unexplained phenomena.

150: What if you were trapped in a cycle of abuse? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A girl straddles many worlds growing up biracial with a single white mother whose new boyfriend brings chaos into a peaceful home.

149: What if you committed child sexual abuse? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A priest struggles to transform his life after facing the consequences of his most shameful secret.

148: What if you killed someone? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Firmly established in adulthood with a great career behind her and a wonderful life, a woman suddenly finds herself to be an unlikely perpetrator of the most horrible transgression.

147: What if your best friend was dying? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After finally being accepted to an elite college sorority, a woman makes a new best friend whose terminal illness leaves her consumed by uncertainty.

146: What if you thought your mother was a robot? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Struggling to find his identity after college, a man suddenly suffers from panic attack that leads to a terrifying downward spiral.

Best of TIAH #1 – Rebroadcast - #120 What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman suffers immeasurable trauma at the hands of her abusive parents as traffickers, resulting in a number of “alters” that inhabit her.

Best of TIAH #2 – Rebroadcast – #94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A single mother raising a uniquely gifted child experiences the worst thing that could ever happen to a parent.

Best of TIAH #3 – Rebroadcast – #112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Megan’s close relationship with her mother turns into a shocking, unthinkable nightmare when an unlikely intruder enters their home.

145: What if your best friend met a tragic fate? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After his best friend contracts a rare disease, a man’s friendship deepens as they grow into adulthood together, only to end with a sudden, shocking turn of events.

144: What if you suffered from postpartum depression? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman sinks into a psychological black hole following what was supposed to be the greatest moment of her life.

143: What if you were seduced into a whole new world? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Leaving her sheltered but complicated evangelical Christian past, a woman explores a kinky relationship that leads her to some of the darkest corners of the world.

142: What if it happened in broad daylight? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman finally establishes herself in a job she loves when a customer commits an act that will change her life forever.

141: What if you witnessed a horrific act? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Growing up in a small Midwest town, a teenage girl forms a close friendship with a boy from a nearby town, when things unexpectedly take a very dark turn.

140: What if you were entangled in a web of shame? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Struggling with depression and gender dysphoria, a person finds solace in an online community, but relationships become shockingly complicated by the disruptive actions of one notorious member.

139: What if your father disappeared? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A family who for years struggled to cope with the aftermath of a traumatic injury now faces a far more terrifying unknown: the disappearance of their father.

138: What if at three months pregnant your world was turned upside down? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman is three months pregnant when her husband’s pursuit of a fugitive turns their world upside down.

137: What if you were the one to break the silence? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Growing up in a household full of both love and violence in Mississippi, Kiese Laymon struggles with generational trauma, career success, and addiction before finally facing the silences of his past.

136: What if you had to fight for your life? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Terra Newell is thrown a nightmare scenario as her mother’s new love life spins out of control, while the ordeal takes on a new life as the centerpiece of the famous Dirty John podcast and TV series.

135: What if a minor procedure left you permanently altered? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After self-medicating for years to cope with the emotional aftermath of an abusive, religious upbringing, a woman goes in for a minor surgery, and when she emerges, everything has changed.

Season 9 Announcements from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Announcements for the upcoming Season 9 of the This Is Actually Happening podcast

134: What if your singular dream fell to pieces? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After devoting his life to a singular passion, a man develops a rare condition that threatens to crush his dreams forever.

133: What if your life went up in flames? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A woman finally establishes a life for herself after years of caring for her mother’s illness, only to watch her entire life be consumed before her eyes.

132: What if you were kept from the one you loved most? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

A young man falls deeply in love after meeting the girl of his dreams, leading to an unexpected event that leaves him with an irreparable void.

131: What if a psychotic break split your life wide open? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After surviving a father whose mental illness consumed the family, a woman spirals down into psychosis and compulsive behaviors, finally leading her on the path to healing.

130: What if you had thoughts of harming those you love most? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationships.

129: What if your mother left to follow a cult? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

From a divided home with parents of two opposing world views, a girl whose mother becomes enamored with a trance channeler must now make sense of her life in the void of abandonment.

128: What if your son stabbed your daughter? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Escaping a dysfunctional family background and finally raising a wonderful family of her own, a woman’s son commits a shocking crime that throws everything into chaos.

127: What if your drive for perfection became your fatal flaw? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Heading to college as a star athlete from a protective family, a man’s perfectionism and drive for self-control leads to a downward spiral.

126: What if your family was consumed by an unthinkable act? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Growing up Jehovah’s Witness and then setting out to form an identity of her own, a woman reconciles the silences of her loving and devoted family with an unthinkable act that throws everything int...

125: What if you left everything you had ever known? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“It came along with this complete obliteration of everything I had ever believed and been taught and every moral that I was that I had within me.”

124: What if you transitioned into an alternate reality? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“It’s almost as if like I could feel my whole self just changing at this point and just changing in the way that I trust people…and questioning myself and everything.”

123: What if you refused to be annihilated? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“I believe that people like me people that have experienced trauma, I think we’re the ones that need to save the world…we’re the ones that actually know everything about innocence.”

122: What if you found a real Hollywood romance? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“If I have to go on based what I found out, I feel like maybe my whole entire relationship was just a fantasy.”

121: What if your favorite celebrity had a crush on you? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“I’ve lived long enough existing in that gray area of not really knowing that maybe I will live the rest of my life not really knowing.”

120: What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“I don’t really remember not having different parts…I just thought that everybody had different quote unquote people inside them.”

119: What if you suddenly felt like a werewolf? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“It’s like trying to go into like a dark cave with a rope attached to you so that you can find your way back and then losing that the end of the rope.”

118: What if you uncovered the family secret? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“The first thing that I felt was invaded, I didn’t know who the other half of me was….My whole body was crawling and I just wanted out.”

117: What if you didn't know what was wrong with you? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“Not knowing, not having control over my body, and not having control over the narrative of everyone around me…it’s the worst feeling to have to go through this by yourself.” Producer: Whit Missi...

116: What if the Devil was battling for your mind? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“What I feared the most was that these episodes would continue to increase until that’s the world I was living in, in this other nonsensical world completely detached from reality.” Producer: Whit...

115: What if your son went missing? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“It’s not that I understand why this happened, but understanding that you think you know what’s going on, but you don’t. You think you have control but you don’t.” Today's episode features Gina Wh...

114: What if her ex-boyfriend tried to kill you? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“All of a sudden within a hundred meters of your house that’s where the worst thing happens and suddenly the world becomes different…you can’t go back to who you were.” Producer: Whit Missildine ...

113: What if you survived a genocide? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"No one can even understand. You can't measure the magnitude of that pain. You can't measure the pain that we went through." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @act...

Season 8 Announcements from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Announcements for the upcoming 8th Season of This Is Actually Happening, starting Tuesday August 7th, 2018. 

112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"What happened to me is one of those things where people say, like, 'that could never happen to you.' So now once that happened, it's like well anything can happen to me at any time." Producer: Whi...

111: What if you had to relearn who you are? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It put everything that I thought about myself into question...I didn't know what I believed. I didn't know what was real, what was fake." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Inst...

110: What if everything turned into mayhem? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It was absolutely like a nightmare. At the same time you're realizing you're never going to wake up from this nightmare because this is real life." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappenin...

109: What if you were sideswiped into a whole new world? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I didn't know what the real world was. I wasn't quite oriented...I can't describe it." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee R...

108: What if you didn't know what they would do to you? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"When the people that are doing this to you look as scared as you are it kind of adds to the fear and to the chaos and to the 'you don't know how this is going to end' feeling." Producer: Whit Miss...

107: What if the pain wouldn't go away? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“If I had thought that life was good and good things happened and things were happy, I would have been crushed into the ground. It would have killed me.” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactually...

106: What if you had to fight to be yourself? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"We don't have growth unless there's pain, and I needed that time to hit rockbottom, so that I could look for a solution." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actual...

105: What if your deepest fear was your greatest pleasure? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Those weird moments of tension...that moment of uncertainty but impending doom...I don't think anything really ever matched that." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagra...

Best of TIAH #1 - Rebroadcast - #79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I have been releasing the top 5 episodes over the holi...

Best of TIAH #2 - Rebroadcast - #67: What if you woke up in the morgue? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holida...

Best of TIAH #3 - Rebroadcast - #63: What if another realm moved through you? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holida...

Best of TIAH #4 - Rebroadcast - #68: What if your sister had five personalities? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (@actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holid...

Best of TIAH #5 - Rebroadcast - #89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we res...

104: What if you woke up to a loud bang? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“There is no answer, I’ll never get my apology…I’ll never get my closure.” Producers: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.org Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four...

103: What if you had a ten year nightmare? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"The hardest part is that I still don't have any answers...what came into my house that night?" Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score...

102: What if your origins were a mystery? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I walk around and there's still kind of like an emptiness. For all I know I could be a government experiment....but part of it is kind of exciting because I think, my father could be anyone." Prod...

101: What if you sacrificed yourself for your country? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"When you're on deployment, your body's in a different place. So when I got back home my body knew I was safe, so that's when my body shut down on me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhap...

100: What if he wouldn't let you leave? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I just didn't feel like a person, I didn't feel like I was a being walking on this planet a lot of the time." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening...

99: What if you kept getting back up again? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Life will try to take you out itself...When I look back at this situation, people don't even know that I go through the s**t that I go through." Producers: Whit Missildine & Lisa Zaid - thisis...

98: What if you were an incest survivor? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“How can you know who you really are when from your earliest memories you have just been a vessel for someone else’s needs and desires and control and violence?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisa...

97: What if you were a white supremacist? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I look around at my life and how it is sort of a metaphor for what I think the future could be for the American people." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuall...

96: What if you went to the dark side? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"To enter into nonexistence, to enter into emptiness, into nothingness, is that space from which all arises, from which new birth comes." Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhap...

95: What if you were sent away for re-education? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"You don't know up from down. You don't know left from right. You don't know right from wrong. All you know is that you do not want to be wrong." Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisact...

Season Seven Announcements from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

Updates and announcements about Season Seven of the This Is Actually Happening podcast. First Episode Launch for Season Seven: July 25th, 2017 Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.or...

94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It’s surreal. It’s like a movie. It’s like it’s not even happening to you it’s happening to someone else." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Ori...

93: What if you witnessed the limits of human suffering? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“It’s in these places that you begin to see the limits of human capacity – how resilient we are...how we will find a way.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Original Score &am...

92: What if they told you the monsters were real? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“Everybody learns at like 12 or 13…what is real and not real, and I did not get a chance to learn that.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Origin...

91: What if you received special messages? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“You start making alternative meanings out of everything.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryan...

90: What if you had a breakthrough insight about the human condition? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“I don’t know why that was a fear of just not having control over me…over what I was going to do.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Unio...

89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"The rules of reality were changing, and I was trying to get acquainted with these new rules." Producer: Whit Missildine - http://thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original ...

88: What if you survived war and poverty in Colombia? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I pictured this little girl inside of me that was not protected." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Blac...

87: What if you were hunted by the Japanese mafia? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"This might be the beginning of my last few minutes on the planet." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Bla...

86: What if you had always wanted a different mother? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"What I felt like I needed at any given time in my life, she just couldn't give me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic...

85: What if you had bipolar disorder? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I had 20 years of living my life as the person I knew I was, and then I had this episode that was totally different from that person." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Insta...

84: What if you staged a dramatic rescue? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"What is the impetus that makes you feel you have to do that thing? I don't know what that little magic piece is, but it was there." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagra...

83: What if your past was an unsolved mystery? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Everything now is just a partial truth. We're never going to know." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music:...

82: What if you lived your life in exile? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“You lost your country, you lost your family, you lost your identity….and you didn’t know what to do.” Produced by: Tom Henley and Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyha...

81: What if you lived your life as a ghost? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It's weird to think that there's a place in your brain that's a cradle for the soul and it's cracked." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: ...

80: What if your life was rudely interrupted? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It would have been so easy for me to give up and many people in my situation would have given up." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wak...

79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com In...

78: What if you narrowly escaped with your life? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It took me a long time to feel even like a person again." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music...

77: What if you followed a singular dream around the planet? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“It’s nice not knowing exactly where you are all the time” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music...

76: What if you couldn't remember the worst event of your life? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"The challenge of trying to think of my life in a linear narrative is impossible." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the...

75: What if you were kidnapped by a police officer? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I look at that girl now and I really don't even feel like she was me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriski...

74: What if you faced a series of unfortunate events? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I had such a 'Leave It To Beaver' childhood and then you're kind of flung into all this chaos and you realize 'wow, I didn't live in the real world.'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhap...

73: What if your father was lost in a shipwreck? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It was like a nightmare that could not be our own...It's crazy to think that this actually happened to the people that we know." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: ...

72: What if you survived a shipwreck? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"We were all having so much fun and then just 'bam' like that everybody's gone." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic ...

71: What if your mother tried to cut her heart out? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

“You always feel like if your parent ever leaves you on Earth, it’s never going to be by their own hand.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music...

70: What if you had a mind-blowing affair? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I felt like a celestial axe had come down and split my skull in half." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro ...

69: What if the worst case scenario came true? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"It's pretty devastating to find out that what you thought you knew was completely wrong." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Fiv...

68: What if your sister had five personalities? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I walked on eggshells every day....the only way I could survive was to be able to detect which one of these personalities I would be dealing with that day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactua...

67: What if you woke up in the morgue? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Only thing I knew was blackness, that's all I saw. Cuz everything went dark and I was in a whole new world." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening M...

66: What if your father went missing? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I'm just thinking 'oh, okay...I'll just sit there and be confused.'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music...

65: What if you were irreversibly violated? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"Imagine in your mind when you can't stand to be around you. That's like unimaginable, but I got through that." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening...

64: What if you were a fake priest in Japan? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I'm like 'oh man...what am I doing here?'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Ou...

63: What if another realm moved through you? from 2021-01-31T22:10:42.023393

"I was completely lost in, I don't even know what the realm is called, this other spiritual realm, and I was grasping to be grounded." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instag...

130: What if you had thoughts of harming those you love most? from 2019-04-16T11:00

“People say you should always trust your gut feelings. But I couldn’t trust my gut feeling and I still can’t to this day, because to me a gut feeling is in turn thinking about hurting somebody e...

1: What if your boyfriend lit himself on fire? (1st episode) from 2013-09-11T07:01

"We're still here. What part are we playing in all this?"

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After finally d...