Dying - a podcast by Jody England

I missed Being with you in our usual way last week. It was a big adventure for me to travel to LA, stretch all my comfort zones and give my first live and in person talk in about 5 years.

If you haven’t watched it yet, you can do so here. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dFrMK3X4bEM

By all accounts, it “turned out.” Actually, in my opinion, it was a full on home run.

I was happy with it. REALLY happy.

I worked my shit, showed up real, and did my thing.

I celebrated, basked in miracles, ate some amazing food, communed with friends then traveled home ready for my next Big Creation.

That’s when life happened.

Or Death.

As I re-entered the atmosphere of my regular life I was met with the distinct change of seasons that literally occurred while I was gone. Suddenly it was rainy and dark. The winds of late autumn had begun to blow.

My friend who stayed with our kids while we were away had to leave early because both of her children had gotten ill, our furnace had stopped working, there was a strange undefined smell of decay in our house, a dear friend was deep in a trial of faith and emergence, and I started my moon under the Full Moon.

I clung to my positive feelings about What I Had Just Done. I allowed these “inconveniences” to roll off my back like water. I kept moving toward trying to be as happy as I had been in California.

As my resolve wavered, I began to entertain silent conversations with my ego.
"I would still be Good if not for All of This. These people... these other energies that aren't mine. Yuck. Ick. Come ON everyone! Sheesh..."

It all culminated Monday morning when I took an herbal supplement to ease the severity of my menstrual cramps and ended up on the most intense and totally unexpected 10 hour journey into exploring Death in a most up close and personal way.

It wasn’t a physical death. In some ways that might have been easier. This was something altogether different - like nothing I’ve experienced before.

It was so dark and potent that I actually didn’t know what to make of it until Wednesday morning.

I wasn’t planning on sharing it at all. I was actually holding some shame about telling anyone about it ever.

But then… my wise advisors started holding up their gentle mirrors and I slowed enough to listen to the signs that had been presenting themselves since I got on that plane home.

I woke up. To Death.

The dark visitor that h ad been standing so persistently at my doorstep.

You won't believe what was waiting for me when I finally yielded to the knock, knock, knocking at the door.

Listen to the replay for some serious Samhain reflection on Wild Soul Medicine Radio this week. http://www.spreaker.com/user/wild_soul_medicine_radio

If you only have 5 minutes, here’s a POTENT DOSE to drop you in.

http://bit.ly/potent-dose-dying

This one’s for all of us - particularly if you’d rather run the other direction.

It’s Spiritual New Year, sisters. There is much to burn on the pyre of Becoming.

See you there.

We are standing together in our courage as we watch the fires burn. Join us there, Beloved. You don’t have to do this alone.

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