Podcasts by Lara-ism

Self-harm and Interventions from 2022-03-10T14:44:40

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: Self-harm In this episode, I shared what I went through yesterday after harming myself. 

Depression Can Feel Like a Blackhole from 2022-03-03T01:16:52

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal Ideation Last night, I had a moment of severe depression. I broke down. But I reminded myself that it was just a symptom of my disorder. I thought of sharing it in case ...

Depression and Being Kind to Yourself from 2022-02-03T02:43:18

In this episode, I shared what I've been going through while in a depressive episode. I've realized during therapy that I've been too harsh on myself lately so it's nice to be reminded to be kinder...

Depression is a Blackhole from 2022-01-16T05:18:18

??TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal Ideation
Last night, I had a moment of severe depression. I broke down. But I reminded myself that it was just a symptom of my disorder. I thought of sharing it in c...

My Change in Diagnosis, Recent Coping Mechanism, Not Being Optimistic is Okay and a Childhood Trauma from 2022-01-11T05:27:17

First episode of the year is a salad of things. I talked about 1) how officially, my diagnosis is bipolar disorder type 1 (not type 2) and the consequent medication adjustment, ...

Alone During The Holidays from 2021-12-25T04:07:47

A short tribute to those who are spending the holiday season alone or in whatever other unconventional way. I SEE YOU. It’s okay. There’s nothing wrong with you.

Bipolar Disorder and Manic Episodes from 2021-12-17T05:31:27

Fresh from a therapy session, I recorded to share an epiphany about my diagnosis (as Bipolar Type 1 Disorder). In this episode, I focused on the other pole of the spectrum, that is Mania. I shar...

My Personal Notes: How We Manage Our Expectations from 2021-12-13T05:51:17

This is a short episode. I just wanted to share my thoughts about expectations – how our expectations is related to our constant struggle with control over our lives.

Psychiatrists, Psychologists and Medication Side-Effects from 2021-12-09T01:37:02

Thanks to two friends, I was reminded of my intention to dedicate an episode just answering questions I gathered in October (in celebration of World Mental Health Day). In this episode, I discussed...

Billet-doux: My Force of Strength from 2021-12-03T15:42:38

This is part of the speech I delivered for my best friend, Justine, during her wedding. Having two mental health disorders, I've been through very dark times and Justine has been my rock each ti...

My Personal Notes: Self-love and Self-awareness from 2021-12-03T05:01:07

I feel a sense of duty to keep recording and sharing my thoughts even when I really don't have something specific to talk about. In this episode, I referred to realizations I've written in my notes...

Random Musings: Love from 2021-11-26T05:07:59

This is a very candid episode but I still hope you learn something from it. I talked about what love is and how my childhood trauma affected my relationships. 

Anxiety Disorder: How I Got Diagnosed from 2021-11-25T04:34:19

Disclaimer: This episode is spoken both in Filipino and English. In this episode, I talked about how I got diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, what the symptoms were and how I got better.

Life w/ Mental Health Disorders: Being Heavily Medicated from 2021-11-18T03:14

Disclaimer: This episode is spoken both in Filipino and English After crashing from a manic episode into a depressive episode, I realized how much medication I've been taking to keep me functional ...

Mental Health Disorders & Relationships from 2021-10-13T23:42:44

Disclaimer: This episode is spoken both in Filipino and English. In celebration of World Mental Health Day, I'm dedicating a podcast entry to answer questions about Mental Health. In this episode,...

My Non-negotiables in a Relationship from 2021-09-12T07:47:10

Disclaimer: This episode is spoken both in Filipino and English. I'm quite happy with this episode because I've been wanting to talk about relationships for a while now and today I finally did! Ha...

Are Your Thoughts Still Yours? from 2021-05-22T05:04:22

Disclaimer: This episode is spoken both in Filipino and English. We consume so much information everyday throughout our lives. Have you ever wondered if your thoughts are still yours? In this short...

The Reality of Having Anxiety from 2021-05-08T01:52:43

Disclaimer: This episode is spoken both in Filipino and English In this episode, "inspired" by another episode of anxiety this past week, I talked about anxiety – what it means, what happens during...

Accepting My Mental Health Disorders from 2021-03-28T06:57:47

A short episode where I talked about how I am okay now after weathering half a year of a depressive episode and how I’ve accepted that that is just the reality of being a person with mental heal...

Random Musings: Self-worth and Overcoming Rock Bottom from 2020-12-29T10:12:25

In this episode, I talked about how we always tend to reflect on our life at the end of the year based on our productivity and why we should stop doing it. I also shared one of my lowest moments in...

An Introduction to Lara-ism from 2020-12-10T07:18:45

Random Musings: Mental Health part 2 from 2020-11-28T11:17:01

This episode is pretty random and definitely more candid than all my other episodes. I started feeling better after almost half a year of being depressed. You'd probably notice a difference with th...

We’re All Afflicted by Mental Health Issues from 2020-11-01T13:22:44

In this episode, I explained how the current pandemic is proof that Mental Health is real and how we all have our own mental health issues to a certain extent.

I’m a Recovering Drama-holic Part 2 from 2020-10-25T13:57:47

This is a short sequel to the episode, “I'm a Recovering Drama-holic." There are multiple sub-stories to my journey adjusting to a more stable life. In this episode, I talked about how I came into ...

I’m a Recovering Drama-holic from 2020-10-25T08:05:16

In this episode, I talked about my addiction to a tumultuous life. If you find yourself getting bored with peace and stability, maybe you'll find this relatable.

How Binary Thinking Hinders Us from Truly Understanding People from 2020-10-18T06:17:01

Pardon the background noise — from my boyfriend’s alarm to my neighbors slamming their doors lol. Anyway, in this episode, I talked about different examples of binary thinking on mental health – h...

Billet-doux: Finally Understanding My Parents from 2020-10-15T07:42:53

This is a letter I wrote for my parents. Finally seeing them as human beings, just like me, helped me understand that all their actions when I was growing up, regardless of how it made me feel then...

Depression is Definitely NOT What You Think it is from 2020-10-11T09:48:30

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: I touched on the topics, suicidal ideation and self-harm, so if you're not doing okay right now, please do not listen to this episode. I keep saying lately that I've been having...

Dear Friend, Please Hold on. from 2020-10-06T20:14:43

This is a message to those who are suffering and feel like giving up. Please hold on. p.s. This is the first time I used background music. I recorded on the spot so I wasn’t exactly prepared (ther...

Random Musings: Mental Health from 2020-10-03T11:28:51

In this episode, I tried being more spontaneous — no structured framing of overall message whatsoever. I shared several thoughts about Mental Health — my own mental health condition, why mental hea...

Billet-doux: Being Loved The Right Way from 2020-10-01T05:18:40

A letter I wrote for my partner, John Jimenez, expressing my gratitude for him and his love. Having a person who loves you the right way heals you and John has been one the reasons why I’m in a muc...

Question #1: What do I do during tough days? from 2020-09-27T12:13:37

I was recently asked to share simple things I do during a tough day – which was tough (lol) for me to answer because my immediate reaction to anything is to reflect. So instead of outlining steps o...

Question: What do I do during tough days? from 2020-09-27T12:13:37

I was recently asked to share simple things I do during a tough day – which was tough (lol) for me to answer because my immediate reaction to anything is to reflect. So instead of outlining steps o...

The Causal Reasoning between Trauma and Anxiety from 2020-09-20T05:30:24

Even before the pandemic, questions about managing anxiety are something I’m frequently asked. People often ask me for tips, but I really prefer going deeper and understanding anxiety. In this epis...